When I was in my twenties, I struggled with the idea of making friends as an adult. I failed miserably. Thankfully, I had online friends who saved me from my over-thinking, anxious self. When I was going through my divorce in late 2009, it was an internet friend who would call me and keep me distracted and thinking positively. It was my LiveJournal friends who listened to me whine and say the same things over and over again but still kept encouraging me. They have made me a better person. Those connections are real, whether they know what I sound like singing Paula Abdul in the grocery store isle or not.
It seems as though there is a distinct difference in the way we are online versus the way we are in our day to day life, but which person is more authentic? Save the trolls and the people who only go on the internet to view facebook, the voice that we present on our blogs or on twitter is the voice we want to have. The inner voice that thinks a little more before speaking, and who can curate their image a little better. Does that mean that because we are leaving out the bad hair days and the rambling about Once Upon a Time we aren't our real selves? In "real life", do the acquaintances we have that know our coffee order and see our muffin top in that OOTD know what we value? Do they get to understand the depth of our feelings like those who read our little internet manifestos?
Maybe I got spoiled in my young adulthood by making those online friends, so small talking my way through a get together to hope someone might be the same weird as I am isn't so appealing. Maybe I'm weirder than I thought? [This is the moment in a movie where a montage of awkward behavior would play showing my ineptitude in making friends.]
I have some real life friends, and they are great. I value the bond that people have with a BFF who knows it all and who spends half their time on your couch. Those are the relationships that are so glorious we watch them play out on YouTube, and miss when they are gone.
I think what I'm learning is that I can cherish all of my connections with others, without having to rank the real life vs online friends any differently. Also, that I'm much more introverted as an adult than I was as a kid, AND my bed is really, really comfy.