In the beginning, before it was called "blogging"- it was all about community. You left comments to each other, even if it was just (((hugs))) to let someone know you read their words, you were there. You had your group of 10-15 people who you followed religiously. That list would get culled and renewed every so often, but there was always that base.
With blogger, I have tried on and off these several years to really buckle down and find that community that would work for me. The problem? Blogs are all about the niche, and I didn't fall into any category. Not a mom, chef, religious, political, fashionista etc. I didn't fit in anywhere. I never felt comfortable putting myself into any mold of ___ blogger. I didn't feel comfortable doing so because I haven't had enough confidence in myself to say This Is Me, I Am Awesome.
At one point, I finally (after years) had someone pick MY BLOG to recommend for others to read...great, right? Nope. The gist of the recommendation was that while not very well written (used the term "raw"), it was interesting to read. I was devastated. I stopped trying to get others to read my blog, stopped putting it on my social media, and stopped writing as frequently because of my insecurities.
So, what did I do and what am I going to do?
I created a wordpress blog for creative writing, and have posted poems there. I wasn't embarrassed by the ramblings of my 22 year old self who was used to the conversational tone of livejournal. I stopped writing blog posts in my head all the time, because who cares.
Now, I'm going to do something that I think has been long overdue. I'm going to merge things. I've gotten a domain name so that everything goes to one place. I'll re-direct for awhile for anyone out there who may try to look this blog up.
It will mostly be poetry, and hopefully short stories and other creative writing..but there will also be a place for me, however rare, to ramble and whine about my first world problems. To express those things that keep you up at night. To reach out, as all of us do, to the world spinning madly around us--hoping someone else understands.